[ Well, they made it here. To the land of the dead. Meeting up while fighting angels isn't the ideal spot to talk, but he spots Rex and decides to see how things go this time... now that they can both actually talk. ]
Rex... You okay talking with me? Or still wary after the last chat?
[ "Chat."
He also has "I let them die" on his throat from the lovely weekly effect. ]
Edited (remembering his tattoo is so out in the open, yum) 2021-11-20 05:35 (UTC)
All I know is, I forgot everything from before that week that I died. And then Tsurumaru told me that way back in our first week here, I told him I already didn't remember much. So it's not the first time it's happened to me, apparently.
Do you think I've been sitting around doing nothing, Rex?
But... I suppose you wouldn't be able to know. Most of what I've had to do has had to been done in secret. All you see is me being idle. Sitting around and you thinking I'm just having some random love affair.
[ a hand runs through his hair, looking down. ]
Rex. Did you hear that I had a role to play while here? Were you listening at that time?
I've been closing these windows across all these worlds. I've had to keep it a secret from basically everyone. I'm used to keeping things secret, hiding them. I didn't mind that part, but what I'm saying is... I've been working nonstop to help end this.
Working with others to get knowledge, spread what I could, protect what I could. And I failed, countless times. But I kept going because I had to, to help fix this problem. To help bring all of you back.
Even when I was injured, I had to keep working. But I was fine with it. I wanted to know I was helping, fighting to get things fixed. I'm sorry if that's not enough for you, Rex. I did try my best.
...But I also failed you. Failed when I hadn't realized what Susato did that day. Failed to put those pieces together. I had my suspicions, but that doesn't mean anything.
[ for the first time in this conversation, rex raises his voice ]
I don't care that Susato got away! Not anymore, anyway.
And I know what you did. I heard you, back there. But you would've done that whether I was alive or dead. Whether you cared or knew I existed at all. Spike didn't kill for Sheba, and you didn't close those windows for me.
So what proof do I have that you actually care, and aren't just saying it?
[ this frustrates him and he feels a little lost. he feels so upset.
and maybe this isn't the move, but he grabs rex and tugs him in close. he pulls him into a huge. he doesn't care if he's punched in the gut or shoved away from it. ]
I care, dammit. I don't know what to do to show you, other than this, if you won't believe me.
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[week 7 ; friday]
Rex... You okay talking with me? Or still wary after the last chat?
[ "Chat."
He also has "I let them die" on his throat from the lovely weekly effect. ]
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Not really. Just a little bit.
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[ He reaches to the spot where he keeps the knife associated with his role. Assuming Rex heard the role reveal stuff. ]
Was it because of you getting your powers back?
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...apparently, it's been a problem with me for a while.
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[ Sorry, he needs more information. ]
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You think I remember?
All I know is, I forgot everything from before that week that I died. And then Tsurumaru told me that way back in our first week here, I told him I already didn't remember much. So it's not the first time it's happened to me, apparently.
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I did. I managed to get some of my memories back--what my world was like, how my powers work--but that's about it.
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...yeah.
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What?
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[ care, that is. ]
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Maybe you don't believe me, but it's true.
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Rex... Why...? Why do you think I don't care?
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Do you think I've been sitting around doing nothing, Rex?
But... I suppose you wouldn't be able to know. Most of what I've had to do has had to been done in secret. All you see is me being idle. Sitting around and you thinking I'm just having some random love affair.
[ a hand runs through his hair, looking down. ]
Rex. Did you hear that I had a role to play while here? Were you listening at that time?
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I did. And?
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Working with others to get knowledge, spread what I could, protect what I could. And I failed, countless times. But I kept going because I had to, to help fix this problem. To help bring all of you back.
Even when I was injured, I had to keep working. But I was fine with it. I wanted to know I was helping, fighting to get things fixed. I'm sorry if that's not enough for you, Rex. I did try my best.
...But I also failed you. Failed when I hadn't realized what Susato did that day. Failed to put those pieces together. I had my suspicions, but that doesn't mean anything.
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I don't care that Susato got away! Not anymore, anyway.
And I know what you did. I heard you, back there. But you would've done that whether I was alive or dead. Whether you cared or knew I existed at all. Spike didn't kill for Sheba, and you didn't close those windows for me.
So what proof do I have that you actually care, and aren't just saying it?
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and maybe this isn't the move, but he grabs rex and tugs him in close. he pulls him into a huge. he doesn't care if he's punched in the gut or shoved away from it. ]
I care, dammit. I don't know what to do to show you, other than this, if you won't believe me.
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